i am fully aware

we’ve been together for 5 years &&& this break up has taken the greatest impact on me. i understand lots of people say don’t worry you guys will get back together. but i don’t even know where i see him in my future anymore. i love him. i truly do. but how can i trust someone who has completely broken my heart. idk where i went wrong. cause honestly i let him do what he wanted it was just a matter of him being able to tell me.
i think it hit me the hardest when that bitch was mad at me for telling her that her BF was cheating on her && she came into class after i told her and looked me in the eye &&& said “my BF isn’t cheating, but your BF is” WTF?! i told her the straight up truth &&& that was how she repaid me. i knew that her BF was for a fact cheating on her. &&& i even had the girl to prove it. but that was her way of getting in my head. &&& everyone told me it was because she knew i was right. after that moment i got so paranoid i called him &&& he told me no he loves me. i was relieved. but then she still got to me. i became into one of those nasty GFs that constantly checked up on thier BF. that’s where i crossed the line &&& i knew it. we ended up needing some space.
he still told me he loved me. &&& i remember how simple it was to get those three words that meant the whole world to me but now it’s a whole different story. i just have those text messages he sent me telling me he loves me. but i’m gonna be strong. it hurts but i will be strong.

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