October 2009
16 posts
:(
i’m truly disgusted with my body. i’m determined to stop eating and just lose weight. maybe then i’ll get noticed. this is no guilt trip kind of shit. i dont want people to feel sorry for me. but it’s how i feel.
how do i say this nicely?
ohh wait there is none.
LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE. I DIDN’T DO SHIT.
i am not!!!
a slut, a boyfriend stealer or a homewrecker. every bad name in the book besides bitch i am not!! i am far from that. i dont want a boyfriend and i dont want one. i dont want to be with a guy nor do i need to be with one. i am fine being single and i am DEFINETLY enjoying it. my single means hanging out with my girls and enjoying the things i couldn’t do when i was with shaun. and trying to...
seriously
i dont want nor do i need a boyfriend. i am completely satisfied where i am. i love shaun yes i do and yes we’re friends. and yeah he still cares about me and i still do. and i wont do anything to jeoperdize that because i like where we are. i like being able to talk to him on a different level. it’s no longer i love yous but i dont care. he’s one of my best friends. and...
yuck
school can go to the deep darkest parts of earth. i hate college. it’s too much stress. my teachers are too strict and complicated. i swear one of them is slightly crazy.
11558.) I had to let him go.
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But I did not want to. He meant so much to me but he wasn’t treating me how I deserved to be treated. I hope he truly loves me. In my heart I will forever hope that maybe one day, he will wake up and see that I am the only person he wants to be with. And maybe just maybe me letting him go was really worth it. Because in the end, I am afraid that no one will make me feel as great as he...
i am fully aware
we’ve been together for 5 years &&& this break up has taken the greatest impact on me. i understand lots of people say don’t worry you guys will get back together. but i don’t even know where i see him in my future anymore. i love him. i truly do. but how can i trust someone who has completely broken my heart. idk where i went wrong. cause honestly i let him do what...
1/2 & 1/2
woke up early cause stacey said so. got ready for lunch date with reyna and chalaine went curry house, pearls, and ice garden nom nom came home got some rest woke up feeling extremely sick cramps, stomach ache, headache you name it i got it the exBF called to check up on me to make sure i’m ok. he’s gonna take me doctor on wednesday :))) kinda had an argument attempt to do HW tomorrow...
